I am not disappointed by my life. I have experencied many things I would not have wanted to, if I had a choice, but I would have missed some incredible things had I not been around. I think of life as a contant surprise and why not? Who would think of all the billions of stars and planets that we would exist? I'm not "human-centric" enough to believe that we are the only life forms in the universe, but, until shown otherwise, it is pretty cool being us.
I look forward to the contant surprise of being alive because it is what makes it all worthwhile. The sameness and predictability of existence is not where it is at for me. It is that moment of awe at seeing the sunset a certain way or for a view of the sun shooting through the trees after a downpour highlighting the raindrops that gets my attention. Just the same as having a talk with a friend or my love can turn my world over and make feel feel renewed.
My theory about why people finally die is that they lose their awe. There is no room for constant surprise in their lives. All of their questions have been answered. Sure any number of diseases or ravages of war can do us in too, but it is the numbing of the mind that I think does the most damage.
Every day I look for the something that will give me a moment of awe. Some days I am disappointed and other days I am showered in awe-producing moments. Regardless of my ups and downs, I am happy to be here and happy to be constantly surprised.
1 comment:
Hi Garry.
I happened on your blog accidentally, or serendipitously, to be more precise. One nice surprise for me today is in finding a like mind. Ever since my mother's death in 1989, I've been filled with appreciation for the miracle of living. And though I've always relished a striking sunset or a particularly gentle breeze wafting over bare flesh, I now have learned to celebrate (though not to cherish--I am a sun worshipper, after all) even the burn of the wind on cold nose and cheeks. It is a sign that I am alive and aware. And that state of being is far too fleeting.
So, all this is to say that I enjoyed your blog. It takes courage to put your naked thoughts out there for the rest of us to examine. (There's something so UU about the exercise of blogging without preaching.) Thanks for sharing.
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